I know that this is going to sound stupid. I’m turning 23 on the 12^th. I feel like I’m getting old. I remember when I was able to look forward to getting older and be finally treated as an adult. Turns out it’s not all that it’s cracked up to be. I’m seriously dreading turning 23. I have no idea why. I mean aren’t people supposed to freak out when they turn 30? Maybe it’s because I have nothing to look forward to. Blah. I’m happy that I’m not going to be home that weekend. I’m going up to Wisconsin to go camping. I think that’s the only thing I’m excited for.

…and my cat just spilled water all over me…

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I'm a little annoyed with one of my friends right now. On Thursday I had plans with 3 of my friends. They were all coming over to my house to watch Harry Potter. It wasn't even my idea. None of them had ever seen any of the movies and since I have all of them it was decided that they'd come over to my house. They were going to bring wine and we were just going to chill for the night. 

Anyway I guess one of their boyfriend decided to surprise them by coming for a visit. So she asked if it was alright if he came to. Whatever, I didn't care. It's not like it was a girl's night out thing. So I counted one more.

Then they decided that they didn't want to watch Harry Potter and asked if we had to. I was like seriously? I didn't even want to. This was all your guy's plans not mine.

Then one of them bailed. Saying they couldn't make it. Whatever, it wasn't a big deal. Like I said these weren't my plans.

6:30 one of them showed up and we were just hanging around waiting for our friend and her boyfriend. She texts my friend saying she and her bf are helping her mom out and it's taking longer than she expected. So we started drinking the wine without her.

It gets to be 8:30 and she says her boyfriend's car won't start now.

Okay, I'm not stupid. I get it. But really you don't have to lie to me. I know her boyfriend doesn't live here and I get that she doesn't get to see him often. She should have just said she wasn't coming when he first got to her house.

I'm just annoyed because she was acting like I was forcing her to come over and watch it. I'm not mad. Just a little irradiated. I mean we're all adults can we act like it?

Blah, whatever. Over it.

I went into my step-dad's work to help him out yesterday.

I think it's safe to say that office work is terribly boring.  I got in around 8 and spent the whole morning copying and hole punching papers till 12. Then I got really lucky and had to put all the papers into binders. I had to make 30 binders. Each had about 50 papers. So I took over the break room and lined up all the paper. I didn't even have enough table room, I had to put some on the floor. It was like my worst nightmare come true. lol. It took me like freaking an hour and a half. All I wanted to do was say screw it and leave.

Every boring thing that you do in a office is what I got to do. I think punching in stuff on the computer was my favorite part. Which isn't say anything cause I almost fell asleep. I also got to file. I was like a regular assistant. lol.

This woman who used to work there (she got fired) was so stupid. I spent a lot of the time fixing everything she did. She had no idea how to file. The woman was absolutely stupid. And I'm thankful that she's not working there anymore cause God only knows what would have happened to all the work I did when she went back in.

To be honest it wasn't that bad. I wasn't doing hard labor or anything like that. The only real thing I hated was anytime I thought I'd be able to leave I'd find something else that stupid woman did wrong. It's a never ending project but whatever I did what I could.

I wanted to steal the computer chair though. It was perfect for wheeling around the room. Yeah, I know, mature. That's me. :)

Being gay is NOT wrong

I'm so mad right now. A friend of mine put some really ignorant things on a facebook status about how being gay is wrong. Now when I see stuff like this I get mad but ignore it because unfortunately there are people out there that believe that it is wrong. But of course I couldn't ignore all the comments that were made. I knew that there were people that were going to agree with him. Of course my little sister had to do something cause my little sister is just awesome. lol. Well she liked this guy's comment that said God isn't real. I don't agree but whatever I wasn't going to start a fight with like five people on facebook about God and gay people. Anyway my friend who is like family to us wrote my little sister on facebook. Basically saying that she hopes she doesn't really feel this way and how she can help SAVE her and attacking her for believing God isn't real. So of course I got mad. I'm not against other people's belief's. That's why I didn't comment on that status. Do I agree? No but it's not like anything I say is going to change his mind. The only reason I'm pissed is that she wrote my sister on facebook basically attacking her. 

The funny thing is she wasn't always like this. It was just recently that she found God. And honestly it has been the most annoying time in my life. I get it, you love God. Yes, I believe in God. I don't need to go to church to love God. And no I don't want you to save me.

Being gay isn't wrong. I know a lot of gay people and they're some of the best friends I have. I'm sorry you believe that but I wouldn't want to be saved if that meant I had to believe being gay is wrong.

Sorry about my rant, I'm just really mad right now.

Justice

The trial is finally over. I honestly don't think that I've cried as much as I have in the past couple months. I don't think this is something that you just get over. It's like even though the trial is over it's still there. No matter how much time goes by it still happened. My sister is always going to remember what he did to her.

All through the trial that asshole just sat there, like he didn't even care. Well, he doesn't care. He pleaded not guilty. Then of course his family. OMG. I don't think I've ever wanted to hurt people more than I have them. The keep spreading lies about my sister. Saying how they were snorting shit that night. That she's a druggie and imagined it all. On the newspapers online they keep writing nasty things. It's his wife's fault. She started all the lies. I wish that I could just move on from it and just not care what they say but I can't. I guess I'm just not that strong of a person. I swear if it wouldn't hurt my sister more I would write just what I think of them on those stupid comment things.

Good news is the jury found him guilty on all three counts. 

Then of course we had to go back for the sentencing. That was an ordeal in its self. I had to sit there listening once again to the awful stuff he did to my sister. But she did so great. I was so proud of her. I don't think I could ever look up to someone as much as I do her.

He got 18 years. The judge was awesome. He pretty much told his family that they were stupid for believing he was innocent. Not in those words of course but that was pretty much what he meant.

I just hope something good comes out of all this. I pray there is a reasons this happened.